The Shatterings:
The seeds of transformation were sown in life marked by in-utero stressors, a symphony of physical ailments, and tumultuous environments. These details, however, await another chapter. For now, an overview of the most recent “shatterings” in my professional and personal life and how it has lead me to my wiser, calmer, and more peaceful ME.
Over the years, I have created an identity of helper, healer, coach, and mental health professional. I take what I do very seriously and I take every effort to be professional, competent, wise, and my BEST. That’s why moving into administration, providing support, and making important decisions, was such a tangible, tantalizing temptation — I could positively impact more people. Leading and supporting others held a magnetic allure. The confidence others placed in me to become the Director of Counseling and Wellbeing at the College of Veterinary Medicine fueled my passion. I dove headfirst, eager to make a difference.
And, I lost myself.
Leading and developing the direction of an organization is intoxicating. This career opportunity gave me a chance to up-level: training new counselors, creating innovative lectures, counseling students, leading in national mental health efforts, and revamping an entire program. I did it all but at a cost.
The work, although important and meaningful, became all-consuming. I was disconnected from my body, from my family, from my passion and my heart. I don’t know how to commit less than 100% to my endeavors and, in doing so, other areas of my life were negatively impacted.
It sent me into a personal tailspin, forcing me to turn inward and work on my mind-body-soul connection.
Lost in the Fog: When Stress Ruled My Life
Buried under the weight of relentless demands, I became a pale shadow of myself. Chronic irritability, impatience, and exhaustion became my constant companions. The fog of stress obscured the impact I was having, both on myself and those around me. Despite the program’s success, the personal toll was undeniable. I was out of balance, pushing forward with tunnel vision, a nagging voice whispering about something crucial missing.
I felt it in my mind, body, and soul.
I yearned to break free from the narrow focus, but the fear of failure held me back.
It sent me into a dark night of the soul.
Hearing My Body’s Whispers
Lost in the work, stress, and the drive for perfection I neglected my true nature. My body’s initial whispers of protest were drowned out by my focus on the finish live, morphing into deafening screams that demanded attention. Ignoring the wisdom I offered others — to prioritize self-care — I persevered until I was forced to adjust. My circumstances eventually forced me to adjust my approach, my path, and my life. I needed to embody wholeness — mind, body, and soul — not compartmentalize them. Replenishing myself became essential, a shift from constant pouring out to a balanced approach.
The Power Within: Discovering Wholeness
I’m still someone who enjoys pushing myself, but I’m learning to do it wisely. Sometimes, we only realize our own strength after we’ve weathered a storm we never thought we could survive.
My resilience was forged in the crucible of that dark night. It 1) deepened my understanding of human suffering, 2) ignited a thirst for knowledge on healing and growth, and 3) equipped me to navigate future storms effectively.
And, having gone through that, I am a better version of myself!
My dark night of the soul woke me up to the fact my passion and power must be managed with care. More than ever, I now know how to give my gifts and brilliance, by being conscious of and respecting all parts of myself. When I have done what I need to care for my mind-body-soul I am a better partner, daughter, parent, friend, and colleague.
For me, connecting with people, listening to live music, moving my body, being in nature, snuggling with people and pets, and having fun and novel experiences are integral to what makes me who I am. When I am in alignment, I am at ease. When I am attentive to my mind-body-soul I feel powerful, loving, caring, and whole.
Our wholeness is dependent on an awareness of our unhealthy tendencies, our habits, and our unconscious decisions that will rule and ruin our lives if we don’t step back and expand our perspective, prioritizing ourselves. Everyone around us benefits from us being the best version of ourselves. It may seem selfish and, if done with insight, can be the very thing that launches us into our most actualized version of Self.
Aligning mind, body, and soul, taking time for ourselves, identifying what charges us, what replenishes us, and our priorities become our north star and guiding light. Are we living in integrity? What do we need to live in more balance? What would help us feel more whole?
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